And I almost always forget. Sigh! Not that whether I am going forward or backward, is it the oblate spheroid earth or vertical me, the flowing time or the following life, the dream within dream or the dreamy me… but the funny fact that I have gone through all this in different measures, small degrees, little proportions and reflected on quite often. Still, I simply, pleasingly forget.
Then things repeat, without my knowledge. Lucid ideas shine through and bring sense back to this life. Life! Surely very confident of itself, life is. Just look at the way it is happening.
Living an usherette’s life, I watch my story playing in every story. A happy wallflower, that’s how confident I am. Dashingly, entering the stage in my mind, I take over. The glee moment, ideas collected elegantly.
Reality is not a plain horror story, it depends just like senility is not only for aged, but it depends. Oh! I mean, let us pick five memories and analyze all very humbly. Then watch a classic black and white movie and read a ‘must-read-before-you-die’ book, all very scrupulously. Also, travel to a place never been before, picking directly from the bucket list. Great!
After doing all this, surely vicariously for now, a tremendous clarity falls on the point I have been trying to make. Life and the happenings, routine feelings and memories, hard hitting failures and mild successes, dreaming-trying-acting-dreaming and in the end, facing the underlying theme vibrant in every direction, almost deafening once observed, right?
No! What! No? Fine, am sorry, then forget it. But, please, at least, try to deconstruct what is repeated in your life. That is all.
|Phenomena Endless Quest 1992 by Paul Jenkins (http://www.pauljenkins.net/index.html)|